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I'm a single empty nester of 6 of 7 born children, and on a journey of rediscovery along with a family of fellow participants in the MasterKey Experience. "If I am not for me, then who?" are words that ring loudly in my memory that I learned from Pirket Avot. I enjoy
and care about the earth, stars, living things, music, theater, love my children and am adamant about saving the future of our world and it's inhabitants. Please share my journey with me as I search for my lifes purpose.
I had not ever seen October Sky and didn’t realize it was a true story. I watched Cool Runnings previously, but now on New Year’s Eve I settled in to watch someone’s dream come true.
“To dream is not enough. You have to do. As O’Dell said in Rocket Boys, ‘A rocket won’t fly unless somebody lights the fuse.’”
It was obvious that Homer had a definite major purpose after seeing the Sputnik Satellite. He had to have a considerable amount of Positive Mental Attitude to carry out his Plan of Action that entailed Masterminding and teaching himself calculus and equations above and beyond his present education and abilities in order to carry out the building of a high tech rocket that would win the team of boys the highest award at the state science fair. To do it in the face of adversity against his fathers wishes, then to win over the adversity at the end of the movie and gain his father’s support was touching, and I hope that part was true.
What is true, however is that since his accomplishment, he went on to work for NASA not only as an engineer, but also as a trainer, a researcher, a developer, etc; etc;
Since then, he also discovered 2 of the 40 Tyrannosaur Rexes ever found after gaining an interest in paleontology , according to an article written by Eric Butterman, who interviewed Homer Hickam. He has now gone on to become an American Best Selling author with his book Rocket Boys , followed by another book inspired by his dinosaur discovery and is writing another series that I just can imagine will make another movie episode. He doesn’t stop dreaming and he definitely has the Nike saying down to a science…”just do it,” and he does it again and again. I’m glad I researched to see where he had gone from here. Seeing all of his accomplishments has really been an inspiration. Homer Hickam is someone who I would love to meet someday.
Just a note: The movie ended right about midnight, so in the final scene as his father pushed the button and the rocket soared off, outside New Years Eve fireworks went off and added some extra excitement to the climatic conclusion of the story!
Winter….the season of rooting down deep…becoming dormant…hibernation…enjoying the harvest….celebrating with lights…..sometimes being cold and wishing I was in Hawaii….
Maybe it’s the habit of grabbing a warm cup of tea and curling up to get warm that slows me down in winter, or just the nature of the season itself. I become a bit withdrawn due partially to the cold, but the quietness of the snow falling mesmerizes me into idle thought of faraway places and wondering what my kids are up to, and wondering …wondering …wondering…
My thoughts drift away into the winter air…my cup is empty…I’m drawn back to reality…I see my pile of cards and pick them up and read the accomplishments that sometimes seem so menial…then remember that Subby doesn’t know the difference. Why am I doing this again? Are these the building blocks Davene was talking about in the first lesson; the many parts to building that bridge?
….the accomplishment on the card makes me smile…then for a second, it turns to sadness as I recall the time frame in which it took place…not a good memory…QUICKLY …I call on the LAW OF SUBSTITUTION to change my thought pattern….too much mental effort! Maybe I need to call on the LAW OF RELAXATION FIRST! …..this mental battle seems like a lot of effort and work….but with the LAW OF PRACTICE, one day it will bear good seed…I continue to till the soil with my cards…pull weeds….plant thoughts….” Perfect Practice Prevents Poor Performance”….LAW OF PRACTICE
I’m done flipping through the cards…..
Moving to my next agenda, I notice my thoughts are constructive. Planned out in OATS…. I look out the window and notice a “green triangle” in the neighbors window sparkling with lights…..green…TRUE HEALTH. I feel good…On to exercise and then the juicer…then to meet up with a fellow musician …my DMP is alive and well!
….this winter….this winter will be different! I may still be cold and wish I was in Hawaii…nothing wrong with that!!! 🙂
Was on the honor roll, received honor pin, was Miss Wheelchair Nevada, was appointed to the Governor’s Committee for Employment of the Handicapped, was Speaker of the House, Lobbied in the Senate, got writings published, Saved a life….
Subby…..linking memories …
this all happened during a tumultuous near decade of my life I wanted to put to rest and forget about. But here it was like the ghost of Christmas Past …. and the Mental Diet came crashing down! Not words, but lots of thoughts, then tears…..
I thought about bailing, but then… I really just wanted to get on with the exercise but I felt chained by those ghosts. I put the cards down. I froze. I froze all week and finally called my guide. She helped me modify the exercise of accomplishments on those cards to the more recent so that I could move in a forward direction.
The lights comforted me, softened the memories and faded them to where they needed to be, and allowed me to see the light in the darkness and see the experiences for what they were… times that allowed me to prevail and I realized that my future i
self is who it is because of them. All seems good now…… I can move forward.
I moved more cautiously this week…. less action and more contemplation. I’m a little off track… a little off balance… Starting the mental diet again. But I didn’t bail. The ghosts of the past were not so scary after all.
Enlightened a bit more with each candle and moving on….back to my DMP
Reading this weeks lesson reminded me of something I once learned in Chassidic thought.
Verse 28 ” The spirit which sleeps in the mineral, breathes in the vegetable, moves in the animal and reaches its highest development in man is the Universal Mind, and it behooves us to span the gulf between being and doing, theory and practice, by demonstrating our understanding of the dominion which we have been given.”
To understand this is humbling. An example given in Chassidism is that the inanimate mineral is taken up by the growing carrot giving it life. Man, then, picks this carrot. The carrot and the mineral don’t die…they are elevated in life when they become part of the building blocks that the man needs for nourishment and growth. Those enzymes, invisible to the eye in the carrot, and those once inanimate minerals have now become part of the man’s LIFE…thus being elevated to a higher form living on in this superior being. They have reached a higher state of being! These life forms now connected and inducted into a higher realm.
When I think about the privilege we’ve been given in this world, I have great respect for all beings and life that are connected to my own. I’m in awe of the law and order of the universe.
In the same way as the mineral and carrot becomes elevated, imagination becomes thought, and by faith, action, and through action dreams become things and are elevated into the outer world!
The Universal Intelligence created a perfect order by which things live, grow, manifest, and live in the physical and spiritual realm of mind. It’s amazing and wonderful!
I have the privilege of bringing the inner world to the outer world and I’m in awe!
I spent week 9 watching replays…trying to figure out what I was missing…just feel I’m missing something. I wrote my blog..but didn’t manage to get the post up. I fought with the PC…it won. I broke another promise.
Week 10….I got news that my youngest daughter who resides in Israel was struck by a hit and run driver while riding her bike and was en route to the hospital in an ambulance. I could think of nothing but her and my failure to be self-sufficient enough to have the funds to catch a plane to the middle east. I know I need to make a change. I’ve made mistakes trying. I need to be with her. She needs her mom. I cried. But then I snapped around enough to read and sit, but I couldn’t calm my mind and I didn’t participate except to ask my tribe to have positive thoughts for us on marco polo.
……Thought I just about was until the week 8 webinar. Watched it 3 X.
This subject has the aptitude and ability to manifest True Health and Recognition for Creative Expression if she will just keep her promises and learned the prescribed methods, however, at present she is addicted to stress. She subconsciously procrastinates and side tracks activities in order to cause a chaotic state of catching up and rushing to beat the clock, possibly due to her years as a single working mom of 6 active children along with volunteering and college studies wherein this was a true state. She must learn to be productive or she will sabotage her best efforts.
Also this subject needs to Form a new Neuro-net. I am sending her to MKMMA for therapy where she will do daily “sits”, read the prescribed materials, repeat out loud 25X twice a day “do it now” and link…link…link! Until she listens to the world within herself and heeds the call. Once she forms a new reality…BAM! She’ll get the cure if she takes the pill, thus forming new peptides!
I suggest weekly follow-up until she reaches 27 weeks, and more associations with others on her path to awareness and more leveraging….Colors, shapes, dream board, feelings, simple tasks…Mastermind. Self accountability ie; Gal in the Glass!
Geez…the time is flying and I’m glad I’m progressing, even though technical challenges make it seem otherwise. Lost an entire piece while editing….(where did it go?) …tried my hand at trying to scale photos into a collage….not quite the result I wanted..but I tried. But on the good side of things I finally, finally, was able to sit for 15 minutes without a twitch! You may laugh but for me that’s one giant leap! My Dream board is slowly evolving. I had to get a fold up travel one because I’m often away house/pet sitting and even though this week I could cause my clients nightmares if they came home to things posted all over the house, I’m having more fun! This week I found a pack of multicolor avery labels as I was packing and brought them with me. I cut out the shapes…yellow squares, green triangles, red circles and blue rectangles from the brightly colored labels until I had a small sandwich bag half full of these little sticker tapes and used them to tape up the gal in the mirror, notes to self on the edge of my pc, to do lists, grocery list, and stuck some in various places that I would run across during mundane tasks. There’s one in my overnight bag, one on the deodorant container, my wallet, etc; I don’t have a printer here so I have had to trace the printed shapes from last week and color them in with the colored CRAYOLA pencils. I have found 5 different versions of Star Trek Theme music which I keep playing in the background during chores and while dressing for the day. It keeps me connected to my DMP while I’m not reading it along. I can still hear it in my head. I opened up my clients’ cupboard and picked a random coffee cup out and it said Hawaii. My daughter dropped in for Shabbat dinner tonight and my positivism remained even when she made a comment that I might have responded to last week. But my thought didn’t last 2 seconds before I silently thought ” I love you” and of all things she put on for us to watch after dinner was Illuminations SING, a cartoon movie. How appropriate! It’s about a bunch of singing animals who try out for a singing contest at a theater on the verge of collapse. One particular elephant is unsure of herself until she opens up. That’s me and my DMP! I had stopped singing years ago and didn’t know I even wanted to sing again until MKE. Although I’m not quite as professional as in the past, I’m enjoying it! And even if it just remains a joyful past time, it has freed me up to feel again and now my creativity is stirred! Ideas are keeping me up at night! I took a big leap and went on LinkedIn and changed my profile so people know that I have a non-profit underway to raise money (how? idk) for under insured who seek holistic care for cancer that providers don’t pay for. It’s part of my dmp. I was typing it all in and at the same time wondering why I stepped out this soon and who was I going to collaborate with and who will help? etc etc; but the more I step out the more people show up in my life, even if it’s to put on a crazy cartoon for the universe to remind me that I am right where I belong at this time in my life doing just what I’m supposed to be doing.